The Truth is, people don't really know if they are ready for anything until they actually try it. If you fail, you know your not ready, If you succeed, you can take steps forward to what you jumped in too, hoping it wouldn't be a fail and a waste of time. With that being said im a very...irrational person at times. I make decisions without thinking, and do things without caring about the consequences. It bothers some people, i know it does. But its just how i am.
To make a point of that paragraph, i just recently adopted a puppy. More like a child, but he is a handful. And after almost 4 weeks of constant supervision, taking him everywhere i go, dropping wayy to much money on him, and trying to potty train him. But through that all Ive realized many things about being a mom.
One: I think im fine being the mom of a dog for now...and probably for a good bit.. mothering a child can come later in life... when im rich and fabulous;)
Two: Its a lot harder than it looks. Its not all cute, and baby talk. Its cleaning up pee, hand feeding my spoiled puppy, teaching him to to obey, and making sure he doesn't turn into a mean, crazy pooch.
Three: People jump into a lot of things before they are ready.
Responsibility, I believe is something that comes hand in hand with experience. You have to experience things, fail at things to actually learn how to be responsible. I had to adopt a puppy to actually understand what being self-less means, And that children and Husband's are a lot harder to handle than puppies. Responsibility is knowing that your not ready for things and being okay with it. Just because everyone else seems to be doing it, doesn't mean you have to feel bad, or out of place for not doing it. They might think they are ready, but you know your not ready. So i would say that you come out on the better end, but that's just me. Having Duke made me realize that i kinda don't want to be a mom or a wife...yet. And probably not for a good bit. I honestly love my life too much, and me being the only person i have to worry about (Other than Duke of course!) I think we forget just how much we actually love the freedom of not having to answer for anyone other than ourselves, until we actually do have to be responsible for another person, or being.
I guess considering Valentine's Day is tomorrow, i decided to blog this. Because people become Idiot's on valentines day, saying things they can never do, promising the world and love and luxury and all that jazz, but never really wanting the responsibility of what comes with it all. Gag me please!Im soo not a V-day Hater, but the holiday itself is one of those things that ive never really cared for. But i guess this really wasn't about much, just my self-realization that i don't want to live out Fool's Rush In, atm. And that Valentine's Day is tomorrow, and that Ive never really needed a man to tell m how much he loves me on this Holiday...because darling's the truth is...I love myself enough for the two of us;)
And you may think that sounds conceited, but if you've gone through the life i have, you realize you should never care what people think, and that loving yourself is one of the hardest things to do, and once you finally do, you never regret it. And i never will :)
Happy Valentine's Day Babes! Kisses and Hugs from me to you! <3
