Perfection seems to be the new trend now. Perfect hair, perfect teeth, perfect weight, perfect job, perfect car, perfect life, perfect relationship. And everyone seems to get so upset when we cant be perfect. Even though perfection is impossible. Our faces arnt naturally proportional, one foot is always longer than the other, and no matter how hard we try nobody can even reach the perfect body. Your either too skinny, too fat, too fit, too flimsy. Because no matter how hard we try for perfection, someone always has to point out some flaw in us, because we cant handle perfection.
So why do we try so hard for it?
Im tired of reaching for perfection in life, in being the perfect girl.
I will never be perfect in anyway. So im stopping to try and get there. Reality is ill never marry my celebrity crush..or crushes. Ill never be 104 lbs, and my hair will probably never look exactly how i always want it too. My makeup will have smudges, my stomach probably wont ever have rock hard abs, no matter how hard i imagine them there. I will never find the perfect man, or have a perfect relationship.
And i dont really want a perfect life. You dont hear songs about guys falling for perfect women, the best songs are the ones about the girl with the flaw, the quirky trait that makes her mesmerizing. Not the girl who has no problems and no flaws. Because nobody likes perfect people, it makes normal people feel below average. Which is stupid.
And basically, im tired of seeing people throw so much into fitting in to the image, and the trends of today. Im tired of trying to fit into those molds.
Its exhausting. And its killing me.
So from now on, i dont really care what anyone thinks i should do, look like or be. Because im actually going to live my life with flaws. My tattoo on my arm reminds me daily to be free, to not let anyone sway you to doing or being someone you dont want to be or do, just because they think its what it best for you. So now im done letting reality and the world telling me who im supposed to be by the time im 21, im even tired of the stereotypes i see in the Church, making me feel like im behind in life because im not on some different level of my life. Because i dont have everything figured out, im single and not looking for everyone to try and find me a boyfriend, or telling me i need to go to school now because if i wait ill never go.
My life isnt figured out, and im fine with that. Im figuring it out as i live it. Im trying not to judge and mold people into stereotypes based on what i see and think of their life. Because the fact is, that we are all in this together. And if we cant even accept each others flaws, and imperfections in life we will just end up being alone.
I just had some things i needed to get off my chest, and blogging helps. And putting my thoughts into words, because i think too much, and say too little. So im working on that too.
So judge me and think what you want, but im trying my best, and if its not good enough for you, im sorry.
But im done trying to be perfect.
