So i was thinking the other day.. a somewhat dangerous thing. & I was observing how the fashion today has changed so much, but not really at all. If you look at the t shirts today and the wear and design of the clothing that everyone is wearing, and then you push in The breakfast club to your VCR player and see the same clothes, with updated fabrics and more sheek cuts and seams. Or if you look at a picture of Marilyn Monroe, Katherine Hepburn & Cary Grant and try to compare them to Kim Kardashian, Angelina Jolie & Robert Pattinson, they can never compare. There is something about the past that people just cant let go of, and just cant seem to remake or reign above. Vintage clothing will sell for thousands now because vintage is what's in. Everybody wants to look like they did 15, 20 years ago. Its because they had something, that we in this day and age cant seem to grasp. They had originality. Marilyn Monroe, and Cary Grant are known because of the profession they were in, and the fact that they introduced something new to the movies, it might not have been the most positive thing, or well looked upon, but they were original. Coca- Cola will never be able to be remade or re-vamped, no matter what kind of flavor you add to it.Everyone around the world knows what a Coke is. Pepsi tried, and failed. I hate pepsi.
But they all did something that was new, fresh, original. Today we are constantly photocopying everything around us, we make skirts shorter, shirts tighter, makeup brighter and bolder, shoes higher and more expensive to try and make it newer, fresher and more original, but all they are doing is tucking a seamline here and there and throwing an animal print on telephone pole and calling it a high fashion shoe.
Im so dying for originality. & I was just thinking about it and how no matter what decade we are in, we always look to the past for inspiration and originality, because all we know is the past and so thats all we copy. Im sure Eve didnt plan that her birthday suit would be the inspiration for fashion today. Clothes have become over-rated, if i cant see a cheek, your wearing too much.
Anyway.. that was off topic and random:).. But my last question and/or observation would be this: No matter how much makeup we put on, or how much newer, younger and better makeup brands them come out with, i dont think anyone will ever have the beauty they did in the 40's through 60's. Its a fact, Katherine Hepburn wasn't known for her backside, but her seemingly flawless beauty. Now going nude is something im for!...When it comes to your face:) Natural is Knockout.
But im not even sure if this makes sense, but originality will always be strived for but never achieved, and no makeup is always classier than 7 tons of makeup. :)
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Thursday, September 22, 2011
I couldnt think of something witty, so here is this really long, really meaningless, filler of cyberspace title.
This week has been...of a different world. Ive literally been zoned out all week. The type of zoned out where you stare at the ceiling and when you finally decided oh, you need to pee, you get up only to find that you've been staring, thinking for over an hour. I think i need a break, a break from life in general. A break from people, and from the same surroundings. Its like when all you have to eat in the house is cereal or bread. And by the 4th day of alternating between cereal and Pb& J's, you've about decided to never eat again unless its something other than those two items.
I just woke up this week, unusually sad, because my love was gone, and wouldn't be back for a week. But other than that i woke up, checked facebook and after scrolling through the same status's, the same people and the same crap i do everyday, i sat there and stared at the screen, Of my friends, family, and random people who i never talk to and i wondered why i had to impress these people.
Now dont get me wrong, and go flip out from what Ive said. Its just why do we care so much about what people think and perceive us as? Not saying i dont care about my reputation and the overall opinion of who i am to a person, but why do we guard our words and opinions around certain people and not others. Why are we who we really are to a few select, but only show the rest the "polished" side of us. The one that would never curse, or say rude things about people, or agree on things we really dont agree on.
I have watched, and watched people do this over and over and over. And im guilty of it, probably more than anyone. I find myself being someone different to please certain people, to hold my opinion and actions in front of people from fear of being outcast-ed from the group and people i spend my life and days with.
I guess ive just gotten tired of "sucking it in" per-say, like when you wear too tight of a shirt, or a slim outfit and you have to suck in your gut, dont act like you've never done that. Its like when your around certain people you have to " Suck in" certain parts of your personality and of who you are. Its like we hide the truth about who we are, so we will be accepted with certain groups and types of people.
Ive watched people be "exiled" and watched people turn their nose up at people because of certain thing that person does that they dont agree with it. And it bothers me to no end, but at the same time, i consciously take note of what that person did, or is doing and if a situation like theirs presents itself in my life, i know how not to act to be pushed from the being in the exclusive social circle we place ourselves in.
Yes, i say and think things that can being...well, rude, harsh, mean, cold, and inappropriate at times, i will admit, im dont have the best filter.
But...certain people will never know that. Because they have never experience the crude, and at times explicit me. I feel like sometimes we dont let people see that we are human, that we have faults. That we do things that others might not exactly agree with, that the things we like, see, listen, and watch may not completely line up with them. Truth: You should never be exactly like someone else, or see things the way they see them.
Fact: There are certain things, that depending on what you believe, your peers should believe what you believe.
Example: I believe that the only way to get upstairs (heaven) Is through Jesus. - My friends and family believe that same as me.
Example: My favorite color is black. Gweneth Paltrow- Probably not her favorite color, thats okay.
Very simple, true examples of the point im trying to make.
Its just my life, and the things i see effect me, and who i am. I would never want anyone to alter who they are so they could feel accepted by me, and i wouldn't want to feel like i have to alter myself for anyone.
We live in a world where individuality and being unique means looking and acting like everyone else.That just doesnt work for me.
So here are some truth's about me that you may or may not know. If by the end of the list you find yourself scowling, saying "Whats wrong with her?" Or have a different opinion about me revert back to to the " I dont care" Paragraph and check yourself before you wreck yourself.
- If cigarettes didn't kill you, and weren't looked down upon as immoral, id totally be a smoker.
- Ive wanted to write a certain curse word on the back of my phone, so when i drop it whoever picks up the pieces just gets the picture without me having to actually say the word. Because, i drop it alot.
- I would be such a PDA (public display of affection) person, if every time i showed affection, to specifically my significant other, someone didn't scream "leave room for Jesus!" Or look at me like im fornicating in public. Its a hug, not a tribal mating dance.. thank you.
-I would blog more, if i thought people would stop asking me whats wrong or if im okay every time i do it.
-I like Katy Perry.
-Ive always wanted to be a ballerina, like a legit one.
-I believe that one piece bathing suits are ugly, and there is no such thing as a cute one piece...unless your 4.
-Life is about choices, who you date counts as a choice. If youve dated more than 3 people in your life, you understand this one.
-Venting relieves stress, its like a proven fact. I vent alot, im not negative.
-This is not a negtive blog, if you read it as negative, you probably have some negative opinions about me.
-BAM. In your face.
- I believe in love. I believe that its okay to fall in love, and that you have to experience failed love to treasure when you find real love.
-I love this boy im dating, and im gonna marry him. Sorry if that bothers you.
-Ummm.. Im done.. i think.
What truths do you hide from people? This list is just random off the top of my head, & i have deeper ones too. But the random people who actually read this, think about it. You were made to be you, uniquely you, if your hide your faults and your not so pretty parts of who you are, it just makes you seem unreachable, untouchable and inhuman.
Ive decided to be me, 100% of the time. And if you dont like it, im honestly sorry, it has nothing to do with you personally. I just cant pretend to be someone im not anymore.
& if you were wondering, i am OK :)
I just woke up this week, unusually sad, because my love was gone, and wouldn't be back for a week. But other than that i woke up, checked facebook and after scrolling through the same status's, the same people and the same crap i do everyday, i sat there and stared at the screen, Of my friends, family, and random people who i never talk to and i wondered why i had to impress these people.
Now dont get me wrong, and go flip out from what Ive said. Its just why do we care so much about what people think and perceive us as? Not saying i dont care about my reputation and the overall opinion of who i am to a person, but why do we guard our words and opinions around certain people and not others. Why are we who we really are to a few select, but only show the rest the "polished" side of us. The one that would never curse, or say rude things about people, or agree on things we really dont agree on.
I have watched, and watched people do this over and over and over. And im guilty of it, probably more than anyone. I find myself being someone different to please certain people, to hold my opinion and actions in front of people from fear of being outcast-ed from the group and people i spend my life and days with.
I guess ive just gotten tired of "sucking it in" per-say, like when you wear too tight of a shirt, or a slim outfit and you have to suck in your gut, dont act like you've never done that. Its like when your around certain people you have to " Suck in" certain parts of your personality and of who you are. Its like we hide the truth about who we are, so we will be accepted with certain groups and types of people.
Ive watched people be "exiled" and watched people turn their nose up at people because of certain thing that person does that they dont agree with it. And it bothers me to no end, but at the same time, i consciously take note of what that person did, or is doing and if a situation like theirs presents itself in my life, i know how not to act to be pushed from the being in the exclusive social circle we place ourselves in.
Yes, i say and think things that can being...well, rude, harsh, mean, cold, and inappropriate at times, i will admit, im dont have the best filter.
But...certain people will never know that. Because they have never experience the crude, and at times explicit me. I feel like sometimes we dont let people see that we are human, that we have faults. That we do things that others might not exactly agree with, that the things we like, see, listen, and watch may not completely line up with them. Truth: You should never be exactly like someone else, or see things the way they see them.
Fact: There are certain things, that depending on what you believe, your peers should believe what you believe.
Example: I believe that the only way to get upstairs (heaven) Is through Jesus. - My friends and family believe that same as me.
Example: My favorite color is black. Gweneth Paltrow- Probably not her favorite color, thats okay.
Very simple, true examples of the point im trying to make.
Its just my life, and the things i see effect me, and who i am. I would never want anyone to alter who they are so they could feel accepted by me, and i wouldn't want to feel like i have to alter myself for anyone.
We live in a world where individuality and being unique means looking and acting like everyone else.That just doesnt work for me.
So here are some truth's about me that you may or may not know. If by the end of the list you find yourself scowling, saying "Whats wrong with her?" Or have a different opinion about me revert back to to the " I dont care" Paragraph and check yourself before you wreck yourself.
- If cigarettes didn't kill you, and weren't looked down upon as immoral, id totally be a smoker.
- Ive wanted to write a certain curse word on the back of my phone, so when i drop it whoever picks up the pieces just gets the picture without me having to actually say the word. Because, i drop it alot.
- I would be such a PDA (public display of affection) person, if every time i showed affection, to specifically my significant other, someone didn't scream "leave room for Jesus!" Or look at me like im fornicating in public. Its a hug, not a tribal mating dance.. thank you.
-I would blog more, if i thought people would stop asking me whats wrong or if im okay every time i do it.
-I like Katy Perry.
-Ive always wanted to be a ballerina, like a legit one.
-I believe that one piece bathing suits are ugly, and there is no such thing as a cute one piece...unless your 4.
-Life is about choices, who you date counts as a choice. If youve dated more than 3 people in your life, you understand this one.
-Venting relieves stress, its like a proven fact. I vent alot, im not negative.
-This is not a negtive blog, if you read it as negative, you probably have some negative opinions about me.
-BAM. In your face.
- I believe in love. I believe that its okay to fall in love, and that you have to experience failed love to treasure when you find real love.
-I love this boy im dating, and im gonna marry him. Sorry if that bothers you.
-Ummm.. Im done.. i think.
What truths do you hide from people? This list is just random off the top of my head, & i have deeper ones too. But the random people who actually read this, think about it. You were made to be you, uniquely you, if your hide your faults and your not so pretty parts of who you are, it just makes you seem unreachable, untouchable and inhuman.
Ive decided to be me, 100% of the time. And if you dont like it, im honestly sorry, it has nothing to do with you personally. I just cant pretend to be someone im not anymore.
& if you were wondering, i am OK :)
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Mice & Men
It sucks when you watch people fall from greatness. Its a sad moment when they do, its something like when Lucifer fell from Heaven, something tragic, but you cant really feel bad for him, considering every action he took lead him to his demise. Not at all referring anyone to Satan. That's horrible. But more the act he committed. To have everything, to be the favored one of The Almighty, and with one action, he threw it all away, and down, down he fell. And we all know the rest of the story. I can only imagine the great sadness that gripped God's heart, to watch a cherished angel of His fall. Now don't quote me, or try and strike up a theological debate with me. Because thats not what this is about. But think about the first paragraph, really try to think about all the emotions and the reality of what happened.
Maybe then you'll catch a glimpse of the emotions im trying to portray. To watch someone fall from greatness, to feel a deep sadness for the person, but at the same time, never pitying them, because they chose to fall.
Ive had a great many friends in my life, only a rare few have stayed in my life over the years and way that life is. And after years of watching friends fall, its not hard to wonder how any more your going to have to watch fall, and every attempt to catch them, or lend them a hand only makes them fall faster.
Ive watched friends throw themselves off the edge, for simple, stupid, temporary things. Passions that start off strong, but when it get hard they falter and lull into depressions. The need to be in the "moment", their own selfish desires, fame, relationships, or the need to find one.
And after years of watching friends fall, In still don't understand it. How they fail to see the greatness in themselves, and settle into pathetic people who grovel on the ground for temporary things and their needs and wants are constantly unsatisfied. People who are in horrible relationships with dooshbags and cheaters, liars, abusers and players. It breaks my heart.
Sometimes i wonder if its something we fail to do. Something i failed to do. Should i have said more? Done more? Intervened more? Cared more? Believed in them longer?
So many questions that even to the people your asking them too have no answers.
This has been bothering me for a good while now, and sometimes you just need people to know, and relate. Because we've all been there, watching a friend fall from greatness, and unable to do anything about it.
Sometimes i just want to say things to them, like....
"Why do you let him run his mouth about everyone, including your friends? And sit back and say nothing."
"Why are you obsessed with soppy love movies and depressing heartbreak songs. He left because he didn't love you, and never will. Torturing yourself wont bring him back"
"Don't join a Women's Abuse group when he hits you, because you stayed with him after that first blow, even when you had a chance to dump him, but being alone is far worse than being abused."
"What's your boyfriends name? I can never remember because you have a different one every two weeks."
" He is stalking you? Well why did you sleep with him 4 times, the tell him never to talk to you?"
"You only do drugs some. Yeah that cool, but i remember when you told me you'd never do them because you were smarter than that..guess they really do kill brain cells that fast."
You might think im being harsh, rude, and inappropriate, but when its your friends throwing their lives away, you'll have a different story to tell.
Just honestly needed to get it off my chest. I'm just tired of looking into peoples eyes and seeing a shadow of who they used to be, the greatness they had, the beauty of a life that was full, and happy. To be overshadowed by a love that will never bring them safety, comfort, or a sense of complete-ness. Looking and seeing that young girl who dreamed of prince charming, but settles for a theif.
I have no dictionary word for this post, because nothing can define losing a friend, or watching one slowly fall.
Maybe then you'll catch a glimpse of the emotions im trying to portray. To watch someone fall from greatness, to feel a deep sadness for the person, but at the same time, never pitying them, because they chose to fall.
Ive had a great many friends in my life, only a rare few have stayed in my life over the years and way that life is. And after years of watching friends fall, its not hard to wonder how any more your going to have to watch fall, and every attempt to catch them, or lend them a hand only makes them fall faster.
Ive watched friends throw themselves off the edge, for simple, stupid, temporary things. Passions that start off strong, but when it get hard they falter and lull into depressions. The need to be in the "moment", their own selfish desires, fame, relationships, or the need to find one.
And after years of watching friends fall, In still don't understand it. How they fail to see the greatness in themselves, and settle into pathetic people who grovel on the ground for temporary things and their needs and wants are constantly unsatisfied. People who are in horrible relationships with dooshbags and cheaters, liars, abusers and players. It breaks my heart.
Sometimes i wonder if its something we fail to do. Something i failed to do. Should i have said more? Done more? Intervened more? Cared more? Believed in them longer?
So many questions that even to the people your asking them too have no answers.
This has been bothering me for a good while now, and sometimes you just need people to know, and relate. Because we've all been there, watching a friend fall from greatness, and unable to do anything about it.
Sometimes i just want to say things to them, like....
"Why do you let him run his mouth about everyone, including your friends? And sit back and say nothing."
"Why are you obsessed with soppy love movies and depressing heartbreak songs. He left because he didn't love you, and never will. Torturing yourself wont bring him back"
"Don't join a Women's Abuse group when he hits you, because you stayed with him after that first blow, even when you had a chance to dump him, but being alone is far worse than being abused."
"What's your boyfriends name? I can never remember because you have a different one every two weeks."
" He is stalking you? Well why did you sleep with him 4 times, the tell him never to talk to you?"
"You only do drugs some. Yeah that cool, but i remember when you told me you'd never do them because you were smarter than that..guess they really do kill brain cells that fast."
You might think im being harsh, rude, and inappropriate, but when its your friends throwing their lives away, you'll have a different story to tell.
Just honestly needed to get it off my chest. I'm just tired of looking into peoples eyes and seeing a shadow of who they used to be, the greatness they had, the beauty of a life that was full, and happy. To be overshadowed by a love that will never bring them safety, comfort, or a sense of complete-ness. Looking and seeing that young girl who dreamed of prince charming, but settles for a theif.
I have no dictionary word for this post, because nothing can define losing a friend, or watching one slowly fall.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Never Quite As It Seems
Breathe In, Breathe Out.
Those moments, where you have to remind yourself your not an Assassin, Laura Croft, or Bono and bring yourself back to reality. Its like when you go out on a Friday night and put on your hottest outfit, and doll yourself up, doing your hair and makeup all nice and pretty. But then when you wake up the next morning in your underwear, and a Led Zeppelin shirt, and look in the mirror, and its like.. BAM reality check! Your makeup is smeared down your face and your hair looks like it needs to be brushed, twice. The glitter and glamor from the night before wears off and your left with reality. The reality that you shouldn't have stayed out till 3am, that you should probably invest in more expensive, water/smudge proof mascara, and maybe taken the 72 bobby pins out of your hair before you crashed into bed. Thats life, always giving us reality checks. (Insert smirk here)
So after i painted for 4 hours and baked cookies, i took a bath to remove the paint smears all over my nails and up to my elbow, and get the smell of flour and eggs off me.
So after my shower i look in the mirror and get one of these reality checks. Like omg, i look haggard... and sleepy. And as im staring at my makeup smeared face, and my hair pulled into a bun and my 300 baby hairs sticking up and all over the place around my face, i look slightly like The Crow. If you don't know what that means, refer to the Brandon Lee section in My Dictionary :) < Great movie. Anyway.
And as im staring at myself im thinking...well this might be what i look like all the time... and that would suck. So enjoy the pretty moments in your life, because sometimes reality is just not kind to my face.
This blog was about nothing, and has no point. Thank you for you time.:)
Currently jamming to: The Cranberries.
Those moments, where you have to remind yourself your not an Assassin, Laura Croft, or Bono and bring yourself back to reality. Its like when you go out on a Friday night and put on your hottest outfit, and doll yourself up, doing your hair and makeup all nice and pretty. But then when you wake up the next morning in your underwear, and a Led Zeppelin shirt, and look in the mirror, and its like.. BAM reality check! Your makeup is smeared down your face and your hair looks like it needs to be brushed, twice. The glitter and glamor from the night before wears off and your left with reality. The reality that you shouldn't have stayed out till 3am, that you should probably invest in more expensive, water/smudge proof mascara, and maybe taken the 72 bobby pins out of your hair before you crashed into bed. Thats life, always giving us reality checks. (Insert smirk here)
So after i painted for 4 hours and baked cookies, i took a bath to remove the paint smears all over my nails and up to my elbow, and get the smell of flour and eggs off me.
So after my shower i look in the mirror and get one of these reality checks. Like omg, i look haggard... and sleepy. And as im staring at my makeup smeared face, and my hair pulled into a bun and my 300 baby hairs sticking up and all over the place around my face, i look slightly like The Crow. If you don't know what that means, refer to the Brandon Lee section in My Dictionary :) < Great movie. Anyway.
And as im staring at myself im thinking...well this might be what i look like all the time... and that would suck. So enjoy the pretty moments in your life, because sometimes reality is just not kind to my face.
This blog was about nothing, and has no point. Thank you for you time.:)
Currently jamming to: The Cranberries.
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